Feeling frustrated!

I have intended this blog for writing.  I am writing.  But the first few blogs, I have been very critical of every word that I have typed.  I am not going to do that anymore.  The more I do that, the less pleasure I am going to have in writing in the first place.  I am frustrated with myself for being critical.  I need to write this in my way, my style, and not worry about what others may think or say!  I am not even going to go back and read what I have written this time!
So I say.  I paused just now to start a new paragraph.  I almost read the first paragraph.  Okay, I should check my writing some I am sure, but it took me forever to post the other blogs.   Just so I could portray a few thoughts.  I added to them, then deleted.  I changed the way I said some things.
I want this to be relaxed writing.  At least, in the sense, that I do not overly critique myself.  I want this to be like a journal that I am sharing with others.  I love to write.  I love to write letters. (when I have time).  I love to put words on empty pages.  I like to write poetry which I haven't done much of lately.  I have many unfinished stories.  I want to do this. 
So, I am going to try to relax, and just have fun with this.  And hopefully get a background I want to stay on it.  The last background went away.  I thought that I saved it, but now it is gone.  I can not find it again.  I will spell check this.  But I am not going to reread every detail of it, just so I can think later that I am not sure I like the post. 
I want my writing to be natural.  The way I talk to friends in letters.  (well, at least sometimes, I over analyze them sometimes too)/  What fun will it be to do that?  If this blog is crazy, unorganized and dumb, oh well.  I will get over it.  I will reread it later!  (I will decide then if I like it).