Going back

I became another year older a few days ago.   I actually like birthdays.  The celebrating part excites me I guess.   I do enjoy celebrating the girls birthdays even more.  I still can not believe that RaeAnn will be 10 in a few short months! 
I was thinking, after a friend made me to be only 18 this year, that it would be great to be younger than I am.  But then, I thought more.  I do not want to go back.  I was 23 when I got married.  I got saved also at 23.  I was 26 when I had RaeAnn.  Since then, I have had 3 more beautiful daughters.  If I could go back to 18, as I was thinking when the friend commented about it, I would not have all the blessings that I do now!  I would be younger, maybe more immature.  I have grown, changed, matured (uh oh, now I feel old).  I have been married to Andy for 13 years in May!  Wow!  I cannot hardly believe it!  I am so so thankful to God for allowing me to have Andy for a husband!  We have 4 beautiful blessings!  And despite the world changing all the time, we remain constant.  We are trying to be solid, in this crazy world.  God knew that Andy and I would work well together.
I want to be younger, but not if it would mean going back to where I was then.  I am glad that God has chosen this path for me.    I hope that I can continue to grow in Him as well.  Thank you, Lord for your many blessings!  Instead of going back, I want to look forward to what the Lord may have for my family.  And the best thing of all, I know, that even if things start to look scary in the future, Andy and I have the Lord to walk with us.