I have not posted in a long time.

I have not posted on here in a long time. Some has to deal with getting busy with other things. Some of it has to deal with me just being lazy about getting on here. I DO want to start posting more. I get frustrated with blogger, though, because I have trouble figuring out the extras that I would like to add. I would like each post to have its own page, and I would like to post more pictures on it some how. I remember when I looked at what you could change before, I had trouble figuring it out. I did get pretty sick last winter. It is not a winter that I would want to go through again. I got sick, and got well, then got sick again. So much happened that I was frustrated. I wanted to stay busy, yet felt so bad, it was hard to stay busy. About all I could think about for a while was being sick. I got behind on the girls' schoolwork, as I could not help them as much. I did not feel up to a lot. I made myself feel worse by being anxious about things, instead of leaving my troubles with the Lord. I had a hard time. But I made it! God saw me through! I knew he could (and that he would) inside of myself, yet I let my trust and faith falter. My anxiety was very high. Some do not agree with taking meds, but I have to take meds. I do not deal well with anxiety. I have a tendency to get overly anxious about things. I was off of medicine for about a year. I started out okay without it. But then, I could not handle things anymore. For some reason, I do not handle life well without medication. I do not take a large dose, but I feel that I need it. Andy feels that I need it. I just do not function the same without it. I have struggled with these issues since I was a teenager. At times, I have been fine without medication. Then other times, I just do not function very well. Some say just trust God. Some say that you can do things without medication. But it is hard. Some of us are more prone to things, and I am one of them. We do have medicines out there to help us. I think if you need it, use it. If it can help you, why not try it? And of course, God helps A LOT! I would never get through hard times without God! So thankful that He walks this road called life with me! I have weaknesses like everyone else. Satan likes to attack us where we are weakest. I can handle things better this winter. I do not know if I can ever be off medication, it seems when I try that I have problems. I have talked to some other friends that experience anxiety also. They pray alot, read the Bible alot, as I do too. You lean on the Lord a lot with anxiety issues, because He is always there. He always understands our troubles. And yes, I know of friends that take medicine like me. It does help! Sometimes with anxiety it feels like your life is one big troublesome thing. It is hard. Sometimes you can't go hardly anywhere. Sometimes you feel alone. It is good to reach out to friends, and family. Medicine might not be the answer for everyone. But it can help.